Things I’m thinking about/making excuses about ’cause I’m probably just scared.
Transcript –
Panel 1:
Sam: (A person wearing a red t-shirt, who is facing the viewer, but looking down at a tiny bottle. Eyebrows are pushed together and mouth is open, with downturned edges. One arm is bent up at the elbow, and between Sam’s middle finger and thumb is the tiny bottle.) So here it is… a little bottle of testosterone. It’s weird, because after wanting it for so long, I now feel apprehensive.
Panel 2:
Sam: (A person who is looking directly at the viewer, with eyebrows pushed slightly together, and an open mouth.) I made my appointment to inject on the 21st. I don’t wanna treat this like a “becoming”
Panel 3:
Sam: (A person who is facing the viewer, but looking down at a tiny bottle. Eyebrows are pushed together and mouth is open, with slightly downturned edges. One arm is bent up at the elbow, and between Sam’s middle finger and thumb is the tiny bottle.) Truth is- I’ve been doing this man-like thing for years now. No vial will change that. I’ll still be a semi-butch chubby nerd regardless of injecting this.
Panel 4:
Sam: (A person who is looking directly at the viewer with raised, slightly pushed together eyebrows and an open mouth, which has upturned edges. There are two parallel dashes above each shoulder, which indicate movement. The arm we can see is bent up at the elbow and back at the wrist.) Still,… being a bit hairier will be nice.
I’m starting T on October 26th. I can relate to how you feel. My nervousness and fear of the unknown outweighs my excitement some days.
Oooh goodluck!
Thanks! You too!
Yaye Sam! NEW HAIR!!!!
Sooooooo exciting!
YES! Hopefully new hair in good places – like my face!
Sam! So exciting! I know that feeling of apprehension… and when that first shot is done, you’ll probably be wondering what all the fuss was about. When I started, I had a little feeling of letdown, like I should have made it more of a big deal, had some kind of celebration – this was supposed to be one of the biggest things I’d done in my life, and it felt weirdly empty. But I think you’re spot on with this comic. The becoming has already been happening for so long now that starting T is just another little step; it won’t change you overnight, you’ll just keep along on that slow journey. Thanks for reminding me of that! Five months in, I think I needed to hear it. Good luck for your first shot!
Aw yay, that’s really good insight to know – i feel like I keep see-sawing about it being important, and not at all. Definitely good to be reminded that I won’t turn into a hairy dude right away, it all will happen slower than I expect. 🙂
o.0 we will have almost the same start date; i think mine will be on the 23rd. cheers and looking forward to yr comics!
zavi
OH yay! That’s so cool! We can ask eachother questions about how weird things keep happening to our bodies!!
haha excellent. i made this tumblr (www.zazzlepony.tumblr.com) with the intent of sharing my gender related thoughts, but so far all i have done is post photos of kittens. i’ll put up more stuff at some point though. 🙂
Good luck, and congratulations on taking this step! Your apprehensiveness is totally understandable – it’s kind of like going through puberty again, from what I hear.
Yeh, I remember when Joe started, it was a pretty big emotional time – eek! scary!
Yay! I’m so happy for you Sam! Are you looking forward to ze mustache :D?
Ha! Yes! But hairiness doesn’t run in my family, so I think it’ll be a long time coming!
I don’t know why (well I do) but I naturally have a lot of hair. My main problem with being genderqueer is curves, then since my family walks everywhere I’m always seen. It’s gonna be hard in the hot months since I don’t have guys’ clothes or a binder. I’ve been working on lowering my voice and moving more masculinely lately but it doesn’t help my name (my actual name isn’t joshie and I’m too scared to use a different name irl) My mom is Lgbt friendly (thinks I’m just a lesbian) but she thinks people are either male or female. Basically the main issues of being queer and I probably got lucky for having two brothers who won’t stop growing (free clothes) and parents who support my gender preference/sexuality.